WOW! Its been a while since I blogged… Time really flies these days. So much has happened in the past months, I don’t even know where to start…

But, for now, Just know that I am still ALIVE and KICKING! I will be back shortly with some exiting stories about our journey the last couple of months…

Be sure to tune in!

#roadofsteel  #FueledByFAITH

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See ya!

I’m leaving you with something to think about

Daily 44


May the 4th, be with you…

I have been very quiet the last while. Well, at least on the blogging part. But for good reason. I had to work through a few things in my life, one of which was to finish the first part of #roadofsteel.

Today marks a the closure of one chapter, but the beginning of a new one. My journey so far has been incredible. Full of love, hate and misunderstandings. The moment you think that things are getting together, they seem to fall apart! Or, st least so it seems most of the time. But still, life is absolutely worth living, and I urge everybody out there, to take the plunge. Get to know yourself better and find your true purpose!  I sincerely hope that by sharing my story with the world, there might be a change that it could give someone hope and the faith we need to proceed.

After all, sometimes all we need is faith!

So, herewith I present to you:

#roadofsteel – Finally the first chapter

You can view it here

Your feedback is more than welcome.

God bless!



I think there comes a time in a person’s life where you reach a point of “return”. A point where you just give up everything that you have fought for. I don’t know about other people, but as for myself, I think I have reached that point. The point where I feel I have nothing to give anymore. Nothing to say, nothing to do and absolutely no strenght to go further, figuring things out. Ever felt this way? If not, well, good for you then!

I have embarked on this journey for the sole purpose of finding my purpose. Finding out what it is exactly what I am here for. What is expected of me? The world tells me everyday to be a good man, good husband, good father, good son, helping friend and so on. But is that all we are here for? Today is one of those days that my keybord should actually be locked away. Not for the reason that I can write a bunch of bull and offend people, but purely the fact that I can use it as a weapon…To either hit someone, or tie them up with the cord!

But nevertheless, I have gone through the morning so far without killing someone, or myself. Which should count for something, right? I am hurt by the world, saddened by what the human race has accomplished. Yeah the technology part is great, I love tech stuff. But thats not the point. And maybe its just not what we did with the world, maybe its what we have done to each other that ticks me off the most! Everybody knows by now that I have lost everything that I own. And I have made peace with that. Or at least I try. It is really not that easy to always forgive and forget. But I have only myself to blame. Not for mishandeling my affairs, but for trusting in people. Trusting the human race! No, I have never been a naive person overall, I have learned from an early age that people can be snakes. Or at least most of them. There is good people out there. I can assure you! But they are becoming like the rhinos…extinct. So this morning I get up and decided to take a long bath and catch up on some reading…and started reading a mail I received last night. Credit to the author, JUSTIN from Gather ministries by the way. For putting it so nicely.

Bring life into Alighnment

A steel beam has integrity when its purpose, its design, its manufacture, and its use are aligned. Said another way, to have integrity a beam must be designed and manufactured for a spesific purpose-and it must actually be used towards the purpose. We can count on a beam like that, even to bear a heavy and important load, because all its existence is in alignment.

Though considerably more complex and wondrous, obviuosly, than a steel beam, we humans need alighnment too, to have that kind of integrity. You see, God designs and builds us for spesific purposes.

God gives us natural talents and spiritual gifts and hearts with unique passions. And He shapes us further by our individual journeys. So, for each of us, our purpose, our design, and our way we’re built, are always aligned. God does that. Unlike the beam, however, He allows us to choose our lives. If we ask and search, listen and discover what He had in mind when He dreamt us up and knit us together – and then allow ourselves to be used in the ways He intends – we bring our lives into full alignment. If we strike out on our own, though, and follow the world’s “oughts” into other uses altogether, we commit ourselves to living lives of misalignment.

Okay, so what do we do? How do we fix this? I mean, all is well in love and war, but how do I get back aligned with His plan for me?

Start small and be practical. Come up with a short-term project that requires your unique skills and abilities, your unique spiritual gifts (if you know them) and your unique passions. Choose something with significance – i.e., it helps others. Then, don’t wait. Get going on it!

Alrighty then! So there we have it! When we reach that point of “return” and want to give up. Just ask these questions to yourself:




I really feel better at this point. I have made the choice. I am getting aligned! See you soon!


#get Aligned #roadofsteel #figuringItoutAsIgoAlong

#roadofsteel~Finally the first chapter (Sneak Preview)

So it seems the time has finally arrived for me to put myself out there in the big world. I have never been so sh@t scared in my life! My mind is in constant battle between the one half that says “Lets do this!” and the other half that goes in hiding without even saying a word. So I have decided that before I do anything more, I am going to give the world a “sneak peak”. Just for in case you know..the world don’t like it or something..? Just keeping my risk limited…

So without any further wait, here is a snippet..:

#roadofsteel – Finally the first chapter…

I don’t know where the words will come from,
I don’t know what to expect, but this is what I know….
This is my story…a story of hate, love and hope..this is my #roadofsteel.

A lot has happened to me in the last few decades… years… months… days… But it is only lately that things started making sense to me in a way that’s difficult to explain in words, but I will try my best…
Where to start..? I feel I have so much to share, yet can’t seem to find the words. A feeling that’s familiar in so many ways, yet a surprise every time..what is our #purpose? There is so many questions that pop in my head at every moment in time… What defines us? Well that is the question I think most of us are wondering around with… personally I think we are defined by the representation of ourselves to the world…. They say that first impressions lasts. But in the same breath they say, never judge a book by its cover.. Which one is it now? I wonder…

A child once asked his father what the value of a stone was. His dad gave him a stone and said to go to town with it. When someone asks you the value of the stone, you just raise you hand and show 2 fingers. Don’t say a word. So the son did so and quickly came across a lady that was very interested in the stone. She asked the price and the boy raised 2 fingers without saying a word. She immediately replied: “Only 2 bucks? I want to put the stone in my garden; I will pay you 2 bucks with no problem”. The boy ran back to his father and told him what happened. His dad then replied: “Go to the museum and do the same”. So he went…

The owner of the museum was over the moon about the stone and quickly asked what the price was. Once again the boy just raised 2 fingers without saying a word. “200 bucks? No problem”. the man replied. So the boy ran to his father and told him the news. He was ecstatic of joy. But his dad told him to take the stone to the jeweller and do the same. So the boy went…

The jeweller gave the stone just one look and asked how much? The boy raised 2 fingers. “200 thousand??” The man shouted. I will pay you that with a smile! This is a very rare stone!” he shouted joyfully.

The boy ran home as fast as the wind to share the news with his father. His father smiled at him when uttering these words: SON, YOU SEE, THE VALUE OF THE STONE IS THE SAME AS YOUR VALUE TO THE WORLD. It depend whom is interested in the stone and what use they have for it. Always surround yourself with people that appreciate the rare and precious stone that you are! A 2 buck stone to one person is a 200k stone to someone else!

Since I was little, I always had this “feeling” inside me that I had more to offer to the world. That I was different. But the more I tried to fit in and find out what it was I was looking for, the more I got pushed aside as the “non-fit”. I always knew I was differently wired in my head than others. I needed someone to acknowledge it, but instead it was just brushed off as being a kid..but I knew, I was different. I had a superpower! I could DO things…things that no one knew I could do. And that was awesome! I was in a world where no one really cared what I did, as long as I did what they want! Believe me, it had its perks. But also its “not-so-nice-times”. Sometimes people can be really ugly. And thats not from the outside… From the outside they are all gloom and glory, meanwhile back at the ranch, they are upto some really scary sh@t. I should know, I used to be simular. I aslo used to fix problems for some of those peoples. But thats a story for another day…Lets continue…

I recently (recently at the time of writing this) had the priveledge of enjoying the chance in life to loose everything that I worked for. I am not gonna go into the details, but it was really NOT something I would want to re-live. My family took a serious knock. Not just physically, but emotionaly as well. But as it turns out the moment you think you hit rock-bottom, the universe surprises you… with a “hidden” level in your “game-of-life”. Yeah, that’s correct. There is a level beneath rock-bottom. So, you hit that level where you think that not even God can help you. And you can not take anymore of this bullsh@t. You are quitting! Then He surprises you! “Here dude, Here is another rock-bottom for you!”. And you hit an even lower point in your life… And so I pretty much hit all the “rock-bottoms” you can think off. Trust me, if you can dream it up, that sh@t hit me. Pushed me even further from my purpose.

For many years of my life, I never had found what my real purpose was in life. Why was I here? What was my mission in Life?

Well, this is the end of the snippet. Any comments and feedback would be really appreciated. Good or bad. I can take the truth, so you are welcome to be honest.

Wish everyone a joyful day!


#roadofsteel #figuringItoutAsIgoAlong

Mystery Blogger Award

After almost a week of total “nothingness” in my head, and fighting with myself…I get up this morning and have the urge to continue working on the first part of my book #roadofsteel ~ Finally the first chapter. (Sneak peak) Only to find my WiFi not working. Totally cut off from the world so to speak..then after almost the whole day passed, my WiFi comes back online and I receive the notification from onelifeoneworld2018 that I have been nominated for the Mystery Blogger Award. “Great! Really a sick prank or something. I mean, small blogs like mine never gets noticed”. So it seems that its not a joke, and they really did nominate me. Awesome you guys! Thanks a million! For everyone out there that’s like me, wishing you can travel like other people but never have the budged or time, the onelifeoneworld2018 blog is what you need in your life! Awesome work Becky and Ryan! And thank you for the nomination!

For those of you that, like me, didn’t know what this award is about, here is word from the creator of the award as well as the rules.

The Mystery Blogger Award is an award for amazing bloggers, who have yet to be discovered. They are one of the best out there, they deserve every recognition they get. Okoto Enigma(Mystery Blogger Award creator)

The Rules

* Put the logo on your blog

*List the rules

*Thank whoever nominated you and add a link to their blog

*Mention the creator of the award and a link

*Tell your readers 3 things about yourself

*Answer the questions you were asked

*Nominate 8-20 people

*Notify your nominees by commenting on their blog

*Ask your nominees any 5 questions of your choice. One weird and one funny one.

*Share a link to your best post

Here are 3 things about myself

  1. I live in South Africa, and I have never been over seas
  2. I am a junior programmer/developer by day
  3. I love to “braai”.

I was asked asked 5 question. Here is my answers

1. If you go anywhere, where would you go?

Bora Bora! Definately! It has been my dream to take my wife there for our honeymoon. We have been married for 12 years this year…and I still owe her that dream honeymoon.

2. Would you go back in time? to change anything in your life if so what would it be?

Mmmm…this is a tough one. I think we all would like to be able to change things in our past, however I personally feel that we are where and what we are because of the choices we made in life, in the past. If I change things from the past, I would change who I am today…and I am happy with who I am.

3. If you could be an animal what would you choose?

Definately a dolphin! I love the ocean!

4. What is your favourite memory?

The day I got married to the most awesome person I have ever met. My wife, my best friend and the reason I get up in the morning.

5. What is your favourite food?

My wife’s homemade cooking!

My nominations are as follows:

5 Questions to my nominations

1. What is your favourite thing to do when you have some time to yourself?

2. If you could be a superhero, who would you be?

3. Whats your favourite food?

4. If you could have dinner with anybody (dead or alive) who would it be

5. If you could be any animal, what would you choose?

Link to my best post

This is a tough one. I don’t like bragging with my own stuff, so I decided to choose the post with the most response.


#HeartAttack #LifeLesson

Today is today…yesterday was yesterday…tomorrow is not yet…

These are words that we can state in any way we want…it will never change. Tomorrow will never be today. Always tomorrow….We strive everyday to become better in what we do, who we are and what we want to become one day…

Lets for a minute just focus on now. This current moment. Are we doing everything we can to become better at this moment? Sometimes we delay change in spite of the warning signs and red lights! We all know by now that life can be like a heart attack. Fine just now and boom! You wake up in hospital few days later.

But yet we still wait….wait for the heart attack. The implosion. The breakdown.

We know all the facts about how to prevent breakdown. But yet we still decide that we will take a chance and see how long we keep standing. Then, the day comes…and we ask the Universe why? Why me Lord? Well, maybe you deserved it. If you work hard at something you WILL succeed. It is common law of physics. So, you work hard towards the plan to breakdown, and then when you succeed, you ask why?

If I worked hard to buy a new house or car or whatever I was working for. And I finally got it, I am NOT going to ask why? I am going to enjoy my prize.

“STOP the decay today”, that is my new motto! I am going to implement a plan to change!

Make the change before you are forced to.

“You will never be more lovelier than you are now. We will never be here again.” ~ Homer (Not Bart Simpson’s dad. The philosopher)

#HeartAttack #LifeLesson #roadofsteel #figuringItoutAsIgoAlong

#Iwant #LifeLesson

So I was standing on the beach this morning, when I had this big “Moment”. A real “connect-with-the-universe” moment…

The water is pushing towards High tide, and I was standing by the start of the water…Okay, about 5m away…the water looked cold…LOL. I was having my “zoning” time and then It happened. That “Moment”…and there was an extra big wave breaking at the back and I saw that water coming! I decided to test the “Moment” Off course, its my nature, and I stood still. Just say to the Universe That I would like to test the waters but I don’t want to get totally wet. So I stood still. And the wave is coming! And I’m standing still! And suddenly, within mile-seconds, that wave died down in such a way that it just flowed the last few inches up to half of my left foot was covered with water. Just enough to feel the temperature of the water. You know, like when you just put your toes in the pool to test the water…like that.

I smiled when this happened. I could see the universe giving me a big grin within the waves. I was exited to see what the lesson was going to be this time, so again I stood still. Watching the waves. All of them was a lot smaller than the one that I saw just moments ago. One specific one caught my eye, and I was watching it. About half the size of the first one, but the water was still coming on! So It pushed up towards me….covered me up to my knees with water. And I was wet! “Very funny” was the first words that came out my mouth. I could hear the universe say these words through the noise of the waves…”I gave you your desire, when you stood still the first time. I did not go against it, even if it meant I had to calm down a wave. But the second time I wanted to stretch the wave a bit, because that was MY desire. You got yours. What about Me?

I don’t have words to answer on this one….up to where I was writing this post at this specific point, I have not yet figured out what to name this post…

Then it hit me. #Iwant! I mean, isn’t that what the waves was about? I wanted to get my desires, probably like most of the times, and yet again I got it. But this time it came with a #LifeLesson.

There comes a time in your life, when you just have to give someone else a chance. But most of all, sometimes we have to give the universe change to do what He does best. And just stand back before we get wet!

“The universe doesn’t give you what you ask for with your thoughts; It gives you what you demand with your actions.” ~ Dr Steve Maraboli

#Iwant #LifeLesson #roadofsteel #figuringItoutAsIgoAlong

#New #lifelesson

If we take the time to look inside our own heads, what would we see? The map of the future? The manual of life? Or just a record that is stuck on repeat?? I don’t know about you guys, but personally I think the latter will be seen by me most times. Its easy to get stuck in repeat….We get up in the morning, we go on with our daily stuff. Get home, eat, sleep and repeat…

And there is the first problem…We tend to have the same thoughts everyday, which means we do the same stuff everyday. Which means again that we get stuck on the same tune…like a broken record. Things remain unchanged in our lives, and yet we ask ourselves the same question…Why? Why me Lord? Why do the cool stuff never happen to me? I can literally hear HIM answer back…Because you are a donkey! Do the same stuff everyday, and yet you still expect different results….Isn’t that the definition of insanity?

A new you requires a #New input into your life. a #New language that you need to speak. And I don’t mean go out and learn how to speak an African Language or something, although it won’t hurt if you are planning a trip into Africa, as things can get pretty rough this side of the world if you don’t understand anybody.

Always nice to be prepared…

What it boils down to, is that if you really want to change and become a better you, you need to:

Get #New input into you life

Work on #New thoughts

Do #New, in all aspects of your life…. (just don’t go divorce your partner and say I said so….lol)

The one that tells you its easy, is bullshitting you. Or trying to sell you something. Its not easy! Its hard! Its a lot of constant work on yourself and the way you do things…

Best of luck! If you manage to get things going in a different direction in your life, don’t be shy to let me know. Always nice to hear any success stories.

“If things don’t change, they stay the same…” ~ Me

#New #roadofsteel #figuringItoutAsIgoAlong

Messy #Messy #lifelesson

If you want to see #Messy, you had to see my school days. Man, was that fun! Never could understand what everyone was bitching about? I mean, it only started at 9:00 and ended anything from 9:48 to 10:20. Depending on the weather of course. On warm days it was earlier…(We stayed close to the River and Fishing was off course one of our subjects…If you catch my drift)…so yeah, school wasn’t that bad…I remember this one incident at school though, where I was called out by my register teacher. Now that was my matrix year, or as its called these days, Grade 12, and during the December holidays at the end of Grade 11, the school got this bright idea to knock a few classroom walls out, so that we had a few “double” classrooms. These were used for your “register” classes as well as 2 of our language classes. (Register classes were when everyone in that grade gets together in one classroom. We were about 73 pupils in the same grade that year)

Okay, so back to the story at hand…Me and this teacher picked up a massive tiff the one day. But I mean she was going all out on me for something that I didn’t even do…(The dog pissed on my book, but I couldn’t tell her that, she wouldn’t believe me. So I lied, told her I didn’t do it…lol) And then she chases me out of class, tuning me to go to the principle’s office…I mean what ever?! Never went to the office, went home. It was just another 09:48 morning. I was a real dick when I was in school. Hardcore metal-head, with no respect for others.

I clearly remember the last words that uttered my mouth that day, just before I walked out the door,..”You are a Bitch! I hope you die!”

That was my last word that I said to her that day…and for ever. She died in a #Messy car crash just after 16:00 that afternoon. Leaving behind a husband and two beautiful babies.

It was only years later that it really started to effect me. As I got older I started to really understand the meaning of life. Don’t mess around with peoples lives, or even your own.

Try not to be an asshole. Sometimes its difficult, I know. But trust me if I tell you…it will come back to bite you in the arse. That I can pretty much promise you! Be kind to each other, you never know when it is the last time you talk to that person…

Love one another…

“I guess I managed to write something about #Messy after all…” ~ Me

#Messy #lifelesson #roadofsteel #figuringItoutAsIgoAlong

#Approval #lifelesson

Recent encounters have lead me to realise that sometimes we loose track of a few things. Important things. And we get side-tracked by things that are actually holding us back on our journey… A good example of such destraction is #Approval. I know, doesn’t make sense…But hear me out for a minute…This is not about the toxicity of seeking approval, but more about why we are seeking approval, or rather from whom? Could it be a lack of support while we were growing up? Or do we just want to be seen? Be THE MAN?

I don’t have the answers for some of the stuff that gonna pop up while you dig away into your inner being. I think that is for each of us to figure out by ourselves. But I do know that sometimes some of the stuff that pops out, makes it suprisingly rewarding. Be true to yourself, find that ROOT….And you will never look back…

“Seeking validation will keep you trapped. You don’t need anyone or anything to approve of your worth. When you understand this, you’ll be free.” ~ (Anonymous)

#Approval #lifelesson #roadofsteel #figuringItoutAsIgoAlong