Suddenly my so-called Life was over…

It was one of the warmest days yet this year so far. I was sitting in a meeting, wrapping up what was suppose to be my “deal-breaker”, turning everything in my life around. I felt my phone vibrate in my pocket…I looked at the screen quickly. It was my wife. She never phones me, unless it is really urgent. Everyone that knows me, knows that I don’t easily answer a phone in a meeting, unless its my wife. Then I answer!

“Hi Babes” I answered. “whats up?”. I could hear her cry on the other side! I really don’t like it when my wife cries. It breaks my spirit and my whole being in two parts. “you need to get hear now!”, she cried. “but I need you to NOT get aggressive when you get hear. But hurry!”…

Her words silenced the world around me. I walked out the meeting without saying much. Only a “sorry, I need to leave immediately”.

What the hell was going on? My heart was pounding in my throat. It felt like it was about to explode in my head! I was about 15min drive from home, which felt like 5 minutes…under water…! Deep dark Water! I had no words when I arrived. I had no energy in my body to do anything! It was gone! All gone! We had nothing left and nowhere to go…

It is today exactly 60 days after the incident, we have survived what was one of our biggest set backs as a family, ever! We lost everything we owned that day! But, yet it feels like we were saved, more than we were punished. I know it doesn’t make sense, but in my heart it does. That’s probably all that makes sense…

Through it all, I have learned a great deal about myself, my kids, and my darling wife. I have learned that it doesn’t matter what the deal is, when there is love in a family, you can overcome anything. I do how-ever NOT say that it is easy. NO SIR! It is Hard. Believe me. But everything has brought us closer to each other….Or has it really?

Suddenly I am not sure about anything anymore. I feel empty, heartbroken, angry… My biggest question was:” Why us God?” “why did You have to put this massive mountain in my road? How am I suppose to get over this one? I don’t even know where to go from here. My wife is in shock, the kids literally lost everything they know their entire life, in one day! 24 Hours! Gone! POOF!!

In the last 60 days, I have learned to listen to the universe with a different ear…A different frequency. You need to really tune into a very High frequency to hear the universe speak. And believe you me, HE does speak to you. But most of the times we can not hear Him. Only because our lives are too full. Too full of nothingness. Stuff that doesn’t make sense to keep around in your life. Stuff that keeps you from reaching your full potential. Your Purpose.. Your destiny.

The universe doesn’t use words of wisdom to encourage us…or even to comfort us. It uses LOVE, PATIENTS AND A HARD LOOK INTO YOUR SOUL…

“There is a voice, that does not use words. Listen.” ~ Rumi

 

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WillieViljoen

...figuring things out as I go along.... This is my story...this is my #roadsofsteel

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